I am most relaxed early in the morning, when I wake up.
At that time, I believe I have all day to do all the things I ‘need’ to do that day, so I can lie back and let my thoughts float wherever they want.
But eventually, I come to the conclusion that I have to start doing things.
Then it’s one thing after another. Sometimes they are tasks imposed on my by other people (my job, for example), sometimes they are tasks imposed on me by biology (going to the bathroom), but much of my time is taken up by tasks I impose on myself.
I could simply choose to put less tasks on myself … yet there is SO MUCH I WANT TO DO!!!!! For example, keep this blog updated regularly every Friday. If I choose to discard some tasks, there are tasks that I would like to do which would take their place.
So then it comes to the evening. In the evening I have to weigh whether a) I can complete all my tasks b) if I can’t, which tasks should I do and c) when should I quit and just go to sleep. On many days, I can’t complete the tasks I had hoped to complete. Like today, I think it’s not going to happen, at least not without compromising my bedtime. And compromising my bedtime will make tomorrow very unpleasant.
However, I’ll be darned if I break my perfect record of having a blog post up every single Friday in 2012. And I don’t want to have to worry about writing a post tomorrow
morning. So I’m writing it right now, and scheduling it for tomorrow.
Actually, it’s impressive that I impose so many tasks on myself. I guess there is a lot I want to do in life … but do I really need to do these things with such impatience?